Guys.
I'm really really really sorry. I HAVEN'T DONE A POST IN SO LONG.... Agh. I'm a horrible person. I never respond to your comments or check my email... And I'm not sure if I want to continue with this blog. There. I said it. Why? Because I feel like no one really cares or wants to read this. And I also feel like blogging is a chore... and it shouldn't feel that way. I know. So I don't know what to do with my blog. I mean, I've come so far on it, but on the other hand, I don't feel like it's very good. So until further notice, my blog will be put on hold. Thanks for hopefully understanding, guys. 2. noun.
informal a brief but intense infatuation for someone, especially someone unattainable or inappropriate. "she did have a crush on Dr. Russell" synonyms: infatuation, obsession, love, passion; informal puppy love "a teenage crush" Yes everyone, it's your English teacher coming to give you a lesson... Hey hey I'm just kidding!! I'm not so mean as to unleash the wrath of English on you... or am I?! So today's post is a bit depressing. Just letting y'all know. Don't read on if you think you're not comfortable with me being all depressed and stuff. The reason that I put the definition of "crush" on here is because my definition of "crush" is incredibly different: Crush- something that is incredibly confusing and that I wish didn't exist. Yeah. That about sums it up. So... prepare yourself for a bit of a story. There's this guy (it's always a guy...). And I don't know WHAT TF I feel for him.... I mean, sure, he's cute, as in he could be a model if he wanted. (Though I doubt it...) He's very charismatic; charms a lot of substitute teachers (mostly female ones, but that's just... no.). He's super athletic. However, he's also kind of a bad student. He tries, which is nice, but still gets crappy grades. He can't remember to bring a dang pencil to class for the life of him. He's also smoked weed, which is like.... argh. NO, DUDE. JUST EFFING NO. And can I just say? HE IS THE BIGGEST PLAYER; HE HITS ON GIRLS IN A WAY THAT SHOULD BE JUST BE ILLEGAL. As in cute girls, to clarify. So that leaves me out of it... And here's where it gets complicated. I don't know whether I want him to like me or not. Hell, I don't even know if I like him or not. Because I have an extremely guarded personality, I pretty much can't let people say compliments about me without me denying everything. I'm one of those people who is extremely ambitious: if something doesn't go the way I want, I either change it or deny it. In this case, I always think to myself that I'm too ugly and un-witty so I can't have a crush on him. Yep. I'm messed up like you don't even know. I mean, part of me is like, "trust your gut, Hanna! if you like him, deal with it, it's okay!!!". And that's the part of me that I'm sure y'all would agree with. But the other part of me is like, "Please. Hanna. Stop. You'll just get crushed. You don't stand a freakin' [I'm curbing my language; aren't you so proud of me?] chance with him. Just look at yourself!" (Can you say "someone unattainable or inappropriate" ?) So I'm really conflicted. These two sides are killing me and I'm not sure what I feel, what to do... and that's where you come in. YOU NEED TO HELP ME BEFORE I SELF-DESTRUCT, OKAY?! Oops, that come out a bit crazy. but you get the idea... I need advice. Heyyy!
Well, even though I've been blogging for 6 months, I still don't know how to start these things. Sad. Okay, so this is an idea that's been rolling around in my head for a while, but I guess I just didn't know if anyone was interested! So my idea was to have a blog with seven bloggers as editors. With seven people, there can be a new post every day by one of the seven bloggers! So people who want to have a post come out everyday will get it! Also, the bloggers will be diverse in their topics so people can get beauty, life, advice, and other stuff all in one week. If you are interested, here are the guidelines:
don't be shy! If you would like to be a blogger on this, TELLLLLL MEEEEEEE. But soon! +adopts announcer voice+ Time and space are limited! It may be first come first served, though it depends on how many people would like to do it... Tell me what you think in the comments! Wa-wa-wait....?! hold up...
6 MONTHS OF BLOGGING? LIKE WHA??? So, guys, it's been 6 months since my first post back on September 6. Even though 6 months isn't that long compared to other blogs, which have been around for years, but to me? It's a real milestone. (kind of lame, but whatever...) When I pressed the publish button on my blog for the first time, I had no idea what was gonna happen, or even it anyone would bother to read it. But stuff happened indeed. I don't know if this blog has done anything for y'all reading this (probably nothing, really), but I know it's done a lot for me. I feel more comfortable sharing information with friends and I feel more free and happy in life and I've met a lot of amazing people! Yeah, I know, just blogging did all this to me... Only 6 months of blogging, and it's done a lot, so I wonder what could happen in a year.... Probably a lot! Anyway, enough of me rambling happily. You get the idea.. I'm super happy that this blog has reached it's 6 month birthday! I'm like a proud little mama bird... Well that was weird. But overall, I want to thank YOU. Yes, you, reading this right now. For actually bothering to read this and taking time to check me out. and brightening my day! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. Well, gotta go... love ya! xo Hanna (sorry, the picture on my computer was deleted or something else weird :/) |
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