A very long post in which I ramble and rant. Do not read if you think you'll fall asleep.
Yo! Well, there's me being my awkward self and not knowing how to start blog posts...
so, how's life been, everyone?
Sorry I didn't blog much during this week. I just... get ready for this... didn't feel like it. That's when you know I'm messed up: I don't blog. but I'm serious. I was messed up AF this week and I don't know why. I just felt really depressed and empty. Not to mention that I felt like people didn't care about my blog anymore/didn't read it. (Please tell me that's not true. Hopefully y'all are still interested in my blog...)
And Friday was kinda the last straw for me. I had piano, which I usually enjoy, but I guess my teacher and I were both stressed out, so... well... yeah. I was so stressed out I started crying when my dad came to pick me up and I said I didn't want to do my piano concert anymore. It was horrible because ever since I was little, piano was something I loved and enjoyed but I feel like I don't love it anymore: I just feel pressured to do it and that's really scary for me because I've never felt pressure until now. So I went home and mentally screamed, "WHAT THE F*** IS WRONG WITH ME?!" (sorry for the language) My parents weren't too sympathetic (they never really are). And I'm not kidding about this or exaggerating because they really are like that.
Well that was kind of a conceited rant but you get the idea... I was really just depressed last week. So sorry from the bottom of my heart!
Some daily stuff.. on Sunday, my family and I went to the Providence Bruins (NOT THE BOSTON BRUINS) hockey game in... you guessed it- Providence, Rhode Island. If you often read my Diary posts (I doubt you do), you'll know that back in the beginning of February, my chorus was going to go to Providence to sing at the game (side note: when we went there, we saw and listened to some choruses: and no offense, but they were DISGRACEFUL and no where as good as our chorus. I'm not kidding.). But OF COURSE it had to be blizzarding that day, so we couldn't go. The Providence bruins were nice enough to send us some refund tickets, so my family used them and we watched hockey! It was pretty fast-paced.
One part that I really want to share with you guys: ice hockey is kind of a violent sport. Often, the players will start fighting over various things and it get quite intense. The most horrible part was that the crowd was screaming, "FIGHT! FIGHT! FIGHT!" at the players, who were pigpiling and punching, etc. To me, that was utterly horrible. WHY DO YOU WANT to watch other human beings hurt each other, and CHEER THEM ON?! What has our world become??
I can't believe how long this post is. I'm pretty sure you want to never come back now. But wait! There's MORE! Yippee. This is probably really boring stuff, but I need to get it out somewhere so here I am.
So, there's this really annoying and frankly unpleasant kid in my class named Lance. I'm too lazy to find another name for him, so yeah. There ya go. Anyhoo, there's another really gossipy girl in my class named Caitlyn and she and Lance were sitting together in art class. Of course, Caitlyn was absolutely dying to find out who Lance liked (very annoying for Lance, the poor guy. But his fault for even leading Caitlyn on about his crush...) When Caitlyn finally squeezed it out of Lance's weak-willed mouth, she squealed and proceeded to tell all her friends. We're not close friends, so I didn't get the memo on who Lance likes.
BUT using my amazing detective skills, I have a sneaking suspicion who it is... ME. My evidence:
Oh WOW I can't believe how much I just wrote. Congrats if you made it ALL THE WAY TO THE BOTTOM!! High-five for perseverance!!!!! WHOO.
Okay, it's late so I should probably go to bed now. Please feel free to chat in the comments/tell me how much you hated this.
so, how's life been, everyone?
Sorry I didn't blog much during this week. I just... get ready for this... didn't feel like it. That's when you know I'm messed up: I don't blog. but I'm serious. I was messed up AF this week and I don't know why. I just felt really depressed and empty. Not to mention that I felt like people didn't care about my blog anymore/didn't read it. (Please tell me that's not true. Hopefully y'all are still interested in my blog...)
And Friday was kinda the last straw for me. I had piano, which I usually enjoy, but I guess my teacher and I were both stressed out, so... well... yeah. I was so stressed out I started crying when my dad came to pick me up and I said I didn't want to do my piano concert anymore. It was horrible because ever since I was little, piano was something I loved and enjoyed but I feel like I don't love it anymore: I just feel pressured to do it and that's really scary for me because I've never felt pressure until now. So I went home and mentally screamed, "WHAT THE F*** IS WRONG WITH ME?!" (sorry for the language) My parents weren't too sympathetic (they never really are). And I'm not kidding about this or exaggerating because they really are like that.
Well that was kind of a conceited rant but you get the idea... I was really just depressed last week. So sorry from the bottom of my heart!
Some daily stuff.. on Sunday, my family and I went to the Providence Bruins (NOT THE BOSTON BRUINS) hockey game in... you guessed it- Providence, Rhode Island. If you often read my Diary posts (I doubt you do), you'll know that back in the beginning of February, my chorus was going to go to Providence to sing at the game (side note: when we went there, we saw and listened to some choruses: and no offense, but they were DISGRACEFUL and no where as good as our chorus. I'm not kidding.). But OF COURSE it had to be blizzarding that day, so we couldn't go. The Providence bruins were nice enough to send us some refund tickets, so my family used them and we watched hockey! It was pretty fast-paced.
One part that I really want to share with you guys: ice hockey is kind of a violent sport. Often, the players will start fighting over various things and it get quite intense. The most horrible part was that the crowd was screaming, "FIGHT! FIGHT! FIGHT!" at the players, who were pigpiling and punching, etc. To me, that was utterly horrible. WHY DO YOU WANT to watch other human beings hurt each other, and CHEER THEM ON?! What has our world become??
I can't believe how long this post is. I'm pretty sure you want to never come back now. But wait! There's MORE! Yippee. This is probably really boring stuff, but I need to get it out somewhere so here I am.
So, there's this really annoying and frankly unpleasant kid in my class named Lance. I'm too lazy to find another name for him, so yeah. There ya go. Anyhoo, there's another really gossipy girl in my class named Caitlyn and she and Lance were sitting together in art class. Of course, Caitlyn was absolutely dying to find out who Lance liked (very annoying for Lance, the poor guy. But his fault for even leading Caitlyn on about his crush...) When Caitlyn finally squeezed it out of Lance's weak-willed mouth, she squealed and proceeded to tell all her friends. We're not close friends, so I didn't get the memo on who Lance likes.
BUT using my amazing detective skills, I have a sneaking suspicion who it is... ME. My evidence:
- my friend Gigi told my other friend Candace who was sitting across from me. Candace looked surprised and said, "That's unexpected." I would be someone who would not be expected to be the object of Lance's affections.
- 2 annoying boys in my class (both named Jaeden, though one is spelled "Jaeden" and the other "Jaden") were asking Lance who he likes after class, since curiousity is one key trait of all seventh graders. I was walking behind them and Lance glanced behind him and saw me, and said, "I can't tell you right now." Either he was looking at my friend, who he obviously did not like or he meant me. coincidence? I THINK NOT (inside joke w/ me and my brother :).
- and my most compelling argument of all... I was walking home and talking with my friend Declan (isn't that such a pretty name for a boy??). And just to be clear, I was not interested in who Lance liked in the first place but since everyone was like, "OMG, that's who he likes?!" I was like, "Hmm I wonder who it is..." Anyway, since I knew Declan and Lance were (sort of?) friends, I said, "Do you know who Lance likes?" and he said, very quickly, "It's you." and I was like, "WAIT WHAT?" and then Declan changed the subject on me because it was clear he wasn't comfortable so I didn't push it. It's one of those moments you wish you could go back in time to redo so you could understand everything better.
Oh WOW I can't believe how much I just wrote. Congrats if you made it ALL THE WAY TO THE BOTTOM!! High-five for perseverance!!!!! WHOO.
Okay, it's late so I should probably go to bed now. Please feel free to chat in the comments/tell me how much you hated this.